Feeling Okay..

I’ve been a little M.I.A. lately.  I started my class this past Monday.  It’s been going okay.  It’s taking me a little bit to understand what we’ve been learning but that’s fine.  It’s the first time I’ve studied this, so I’m trying to be patient with myself.

It feels good to be doing something other than work, come home, eat, sleep, repeat.  Day after day.  It feels like I’m at least trying something new and trying to keep my brain moving.

That’s important.  Keep your brain moving.  Keep learning.  There is always something new to be learned.  There are so many people in the world and I bet each one of them could teach me something new.

I’m excited to for the future.  Things seem to be moving forward in the right direction.  I’m almost worried to say those words out loud.  I sometimes feel like the Universe is against me.  Every time I feel like things are going great, I get knocked down a few pegs.

BUT I will not keep negative thoughts in my brain.  It’s best to let that shit go.

 

Crystals?

My husband has been doing a bit of research on the healing properties of crystals and stones.

Has anyone ever used crystals and if so, did you notice a positive effect on your life?  I’m very interested in learning more about this.  I feel like anything I can do to bring a positive vibe into my life is def work a shot!

All Signs Point to “Do It”..

The Universe has a funny way of telling us what to do, that we often miss what it is trying to tell us.

Just recently I was at a certain, very popular place that does people’s taxes.  I wasn’t getting my taxes done, but I was in there for another issue that has been going on with my taxes from a few years ago.

As I’m sitting there, talking to the woman that is helping me, she asks me what I do for a living.  I tell her.  I also tell her that I’m burnt out with it, and would like to start a new career in something else, but I’m not sure what.

After I tell her this, she mentions that she has a voucher for a full scholarship to take their Income tax course.  It’s only for a month and a half, and it would be completely free if I decided to enroll.

I couldn’t help but think that this was the Universe literally dropping an opportunity in my lap. So many times, the Universe has presented opportunities to me that I have just looked pass.  I decided I didn’t want this one to pass me by.  So I enrolled.

I’m super excited about starting.  I have a good feeling about it.  Maybe it will be the start of a new career for me.  I feel that it’s good to have as many skills under your belt as possible.  Plus, at this point in my life, my brain is bored.  I need something to stimulate it, and this will be a great way to do that.

So here’s to not letting obvious signs from the Universe pass you by

What kind of signs from the Universe did you listen to? Or not listen to?  Please share below!

 

Finding the Good..

There was something that happened in my life about a month or so ago that just completely changed my attitude.   My husband and I were looking to move to a nicer place.  Get out of the building we’re in and away from the neighbor from hell.  We applied for a beautiful, luxury apartment.  Everything was looking up.  We had passed the first two steps of the application process, and were just waiting on the third step to be approved.  Not more than 2 weeks before our move in date, we got a letter stating that our application was denied.

This literally sent me into a tailspin.  I know to some, this situation seems minuscule.  But to us, it was everything.  Getting denied completely through a wrench in our life plan.  Since then I have felt my behavior and my way of thinking change.  I have not always been the most positive person on the planet.  I have been through battles of depression.  Some days are better than others, but I’m usually able to keep face at work and in public.  Put a smile on, pretend like everything is okay.  But since that happened with the apartment, I have been having a harder and harder time keeping face.

I’m finding it more difficult to bring myself back down to the state of mind that I was once in.  The one where I could reassure myself that everything is fine, and for a while, that was sufficient enough.  I’m having a harder and harder time being grateful for everything that I DO have.  I know that practicing gratitude is one of the most important things that we can do.  I’ve started, and then stopped gratitude journals. But I know that I need to make it a point to continue.  When I stop and think, I realize I have so much to be grateful for.  I need to remember this every single day.

I’m grateful for my husband, my dog and my family.  I’m grateful that I have the means to keep a roof over my head, food in my house and can pay my bills on time.

What are you grateful for?  I’d love to hear!

Also, if you have not already checked out Ralph Smart’s YouTube channel, I highly recommend it.  He offers great advice for all of life’s hardships.  https://youtu.be/slKv1NE7PeE  Just copy and paste the link!

 

The First Step..

I am starting this blog as a documented journey to my self discovery.  As I sit, I suffer from anxiety and depression.  My goal is to work through my issues through writing, trial and error, offering advice and accepting advice if and when it is given.  I am a 31 year old woman, currently working in a career that is less than satisfy for me.  I have been in this specific industry for years now and although I love some aspects of the job, I am left everyday feeling empty.  This is not my calling.  I have not been preforming to my fullest potential these past few months.  I have had a string of negative events happen in my life recently that have contributed to the negative feelings I have been having.  Now I can start to see how my mood and attitude is effecting my loved ones and the people that are around me day to day.  I have decided that I am going to make a change in my life.  Today marks the first day that I have scheduled “Me time” into my weekend routine.  I have a spa appointment scheduled for later this morning.  I woke up early, took the dog for a nice walk out in nature.  Sat for a moment and just listened to peaceful music, watched the clouds and just breathed in the air.  It felt good.  I felt peaceful for once.

I’ve decided to start this blog as a sort of accountability project for my own benefit.  Even if no one reads this, it will still be something to do for myself.  I’m hoping that along this journey, I will find other people that can relate to my situation or help people over come their individual situation.  I want to be here to help and embrace help.

 

Home Sweet Home?

Living with anxiety is never fun for anyone.  It’s not fun for the person that has the anxiety and it’s not fun for the people that are around that person.  As someone that has anxiety, my home used to be a peaceful place I could go and relax after a stressful day at work or during one of my anxious episodes.  My husband and I have lived in our apartment now for about 4 years.  When we first moved in, the neighborhood was nice and quiet and more importantly, the neighbors in our building were respectful and kept to themselves.  This all changed about a year ago when the landlord decided to raise the rent.  In doing this, he drove out a few of the good neighbors that we had.  The man that was living above us was sweet, quiet and never bothered anyone.  He ended up leaving because of the rent increase.  After quite some time of our landlord not doing anything with apartment, he finally got a new tenant in there.   This new tenant is absolutely beyond disrespectful, ignorant and childish he’s loud, he stomps around, he brings shady people around and creeps around all hours of the day and night.   He makes being at our apartment so stressful to the point where I’d rather be at work than at home.  For some reason I cannot block it out.  My husband has an easier time tuning it out when he’s here than I do.  There are some days that I’m just sitting here getting angry and anxious that I feel like I’m going to have a nervous breakdown. I’ve tried meditating with headphones, but I can still hear the light fixtures rattling due to this jerk’s stomping.  I’ve tried going out and doing something relaxing, but as soon as I come back the anxiety starts back up again.  It’s gotten to the point where we don’t feel safe in our own home.

So my question is this.  Have YOU ever experienced a situation like this?  What did you do you help cope with it?  What kind of methods did you use to help yourself get through it?  I’d love to hear from you guys!